I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

You broke the bonds and you loosed the chains
Carried the cross of my shame Of my shame
You know I believed it
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

To many the words of U2 were a proclamation that they had given up on Christianity, but as a devout Christian I find myself still searching, still seeking on a regular basis. So to me, these words speak of an honest faith that doesn't put up a false front or pie in the sky promises. Some days I live in Amazing Grace, but, more often than not, I live in "I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For"

Accepting Christ doesn't come with a CD Rom with all of the answers you'll need for this life, nor do you, like Minerva sprouting fully grown from the head of Zeus, magically become a fully mature Christian, needing no further growth or discipleship the minute you speak the sinners prayer.

I am currently in a season in which my work schedule has prevented me from attending church on Sunday mornings since June, and not again until January. Our current church has no Sunday Evening service as we meet in a high school auditorium. I have made infrequent attempts to meet with other worshipers to get my worship fix. But, I still haven't found what I'm looking for. My wife and I attend a growth group on Wednesdays to get a small window of fellowship and adult discussions about faith. But, I still haven't found what I'm looking for. I help moderate a discussion forum on christiansongwriting.org, to help each other hone our song writing skills, but, I still haven't found what I'm looking for.

I believe in the kingdom come Then all the colors will bleed into one bleed into one Yes I'm still running

Christ spoke "Thy kingdom come, on Earth as it is in heaven"..
The Kingdom of God will be here on Earth and I am looking forward to that day! I look at my world now and see division in the church, I see genocide, famine and disease. At this very moment, the children in my home are yelling at each other. I want to see some of the Kingdom of God ... But, I still haven't found what I'm looking for.